HOORAY! I finally got a brand new blogskin! I spent 2 hours on it and tada! :)) I didnt actually plan much, I did it just because I wanted to play with photoshop for a while. [Honestly, it's because I was too lazy to study. Haha!] Oh well, it turns out SO SO SO MUCH better than the Awaiting one. AHHH... SOMEONE CODE IT FOR ME PLEASEEE!! I'll reward you, somehow xP
Anyway, it still has a connection with this current one. All about FASHION :) I cant help it. I have tonnes of these pretty pictures in my files and I wanna USE THEM. It would be sucha pity if I kept it all by myself. I should show it to the world. Hah.

PROCRASTINATION

I've just realised i'm uncontrollable. Hah! I should be revising for exams at this point of time but all I did today was SLACKING :) That's seriously bad. There are too many distractions at home and this means I have no self-discipline =x Oppsie daisy.. I tried REALLY HARD but all I felt was exhaustion. Since tuesday, I havent got a good nights sleep. I know theres something wrong but I have no idea how to save myself. I have a feeling this will go on till MYE are over. Which is.. 3 WEEKS LATER !! Yes, it's 3 weeks not 3 days :(

I'm sick of this blogskin. I wanna change it BADLY. I want a whole new style. Not sure if I'm up to the challenge cause my photoshop skills are rusting. Maybe I shall learn and see more before working on it. A good inspiration would come in handy, i'm waiting for it :) I would most probably start on it during the june hols. GAHH.. I CANT WAIT !

somehow, i cant seem to get some sleep at night at all. i think im stressed in a way and i dont know what to do. i woke up 4 times the night before bio test and all i dream of is, science notes. it's freaking me out. i seriously need to sleep or i'll die! MYE is gonna start tomorrow. i feel so hopeless and unprepared. i have SO MUCH TO DO! im worrying for my english. i have no idea what has happened, but it's deproving badly. this is the first time im actually worried for it, im like so dead. good luck to me then.

suddenly, im starting to appreciate maths, or rather algebra. i seem to love practising maths equations now and i finally got my simultaneous equations right, yay ;)

i've been craving for milk the whole day and now i finally got it :) i drank loadds of milk, maybe more than a litre. im addicted to it :) went to watch [Take The Lead] with Wanda, Jane, Germaine and Beatrice. i cant believe i actually fell for jane's trap to agree to go watch it with her when examinations officially starts tomorrow. this will be the first and the last i swear. the movie wasnt as nice as i thought it would be. i only liked the last part. sighh..

wanda and i went to jane's house to mug after that. we didnt actually MUG cause we were all distracted and stuff like that. i feel SO GUILTY now. i actually wasted one day when i could do at least a hundred maths sums! *screams* im so sad and sleepy now. shall go to sleep and feel fresh and ready for english tmr i hope.

NAPFA is over ! im so happy :)) it's the only thing i dreaded in this year. had 2.4 yesterday and 5 stations today. i passed everything, which is good even if i get an E. as long as i dont have to do it again, i dont care xP haha. surprisingly, i did 23 inclined altogether. actually i did 5 at first but nicolette told mrs loh the thing wasnt straight so yah. i did twice and it's better. haha. i did 18! she only counted 16 but nevermine. she was very leinient ! i didnt even think i did so much. hees. while doing sit ups, i really wanted to give up when i reached 20 plus but thank god nicolette was pushing me :) i dont think i'll actually get an A without her. thank you nicolette !

trishy have been really cute and funny at the same time. she kept telling us how good we did and all that. haha. then me, wanda and trishy were talking. both me and wanda were laughing our head's off at trishy's ah ma-ness and morals even when she looked SO LIKE a little cute bunny! it's always trishy and her SQUEAAKKY voice XD

i just found out that jane is a lousier scissors paper stone player compared to me. me, simin, alysia and wanda were playing and i was the worst player. but jane proved that i wasnt the worst. im glad though :)) HAHA. shall practice my skills and challenge si min and alysia SOMEDAY. maybe tomorrow. i dont know. hahah! HUMPFFFFF~

ooh ooh! before i end, i wanna comment on Island Creamery's MANGO ice cream! it's FABULOUS! i love love love it. thanks ally for bringing me there although it's EXPENSIVE. they gave me sucha small scoop :( oh well, me, jane and ally had loadds of fun at Island Creamery. i was SO DETERMINE to complete my maths homework but because of the 2 of them, i couldnt. hahaha. i just love today so MUCH.

this is my THANKYOU post. so if your name's not here. dont bother reading it alright :)

THANK YOU..

Wanda; for telling me so much about da vinci code yesterday & being sucha GRREEEAAATTT yet lame partner xD

Celina; for liking my masterpieces and telling me i have IMMENSE talents. haha! i'll remember that always and use that to strive better ;)

Usha; for thinking im someone who is good in maths and that also means im nerdy -_-"

Belinda; for helping me understand what lesbians always do xP

Si Min; for brightening every single day of my life and drinking up all my milo.

JaneC; for being my TP/TB hees*

Janey; for those heart to heart talks we had ^^

Alyssa; for telling me candies help to de-stress SWEEETT

Alysia; for ah ma-ing all day along. it's funny : ))

Kat; for understanding what im going through and sharing songs with me =)

Fiona; for the photo you took for me

Nicolette; for abusing me, it makes me strong. LOL

Beatrice; for trying so hard to beg your mum to give in to the JEP.

Germaine; for tapping my shoulders everyday. =P

I was just complaining to my brother about our hopeless I am just because:

1) I dont have any inspiration for my English personal recount.
2) I dont know anything about Singapore's trading port and as a result, I dont know how to do my student reflection.
3) I always get stuck when I play the guitar
4) I can't code my own layout
5) I have no idea what to do how my Jap homework.

Then he started singing "Why is life so hard to live?"when it's actually "Why is love so hard to find?"by Jesse McCartney! Hahaa. Funny.

After that, I opened the fridge and took the bottle of milk to drink. While drinking I read the information behind and it says "Refrigerated below 4 degrees to keep it fresh" or something like that. And I exclaimed, "HUH?! 4 DEGREES why!" My brother told me it's to keep it cold of course. OH MY.. I opened the fridge and REALISED I've been turning to MAX for the past few years cause I THOUGHT it's the coldest when it's the HOTEST! Goodness. That's why the fridge is always not cold.. GAHH... IM SO DUMB.

It's a WONDEFUL day today :) Im just so happy with my simple life. First I woke up early for Jap class as usual. It always turn out so much better than the way I think it will be on Friday nights. Im just being lazy. Haha. Brother smsed me and told me he's coming to fetch me and that means something good is gonna happen *beams*. Although he made me wait really long, almost an hour, but I had my psp so it's alright. Time seem to pass really fast with it. Haha. This is the reason why I wanna buy it anyway, to kill time. Okay, when he reached, we went to find shoes for ourselves. He brought me to this place opposite St Andrew's Cathedral I think and I FINALLY found my darling SHOES!! xD A simple adidas shoe but 109 dollars gone. *shrugs* Oh well, at least I have a new shoe that prevents water from going in on rainy days..

Yeap, after that we went to cold storage to buy ingredients for my HE practical on monday and also got ice cream from Venezia. NICEY :) BUTnever ever eat Mango and Chocolate Mint ice cream together, it's terrible. Sigh, I still cant find my purple ice cream! :'( If anyone sees purple ice cream, PLEASE tell me where is it okay. Anyway, brother and I went to bake our rice and thank god we succeded without any recipe! HAHA. I was so worried at first as I was afraid the microwave might blast or something and there goes my house. But it turns out nice just that I think it's overcook. I shall shorten the time :)

Thats all about today. Lets talk about YESTERDAY :) It turned out quite nice cause I got to sleep alot. But woke up early again cause I'll be meeting Wanda and Alyssa at orchard. I woke up at 9am and slept after that. Woke up again when Wanda smsed me and slept again. Haha. I just kept sleeping and then wake up after a while. I was sucha pig. xP It was my lazy day. I surrended and finally dragged myself up at 12. Six words : My bed is just so comfortable :)) Haha. I dressed up quickly and got out the house when both Wanda and Alyssa told me they were gonna be late. Okay... Nevermine. Alyssa was last though.

When I reached Topshop. I was practically BLIND. Wanda is my witness! Haha. Maybe I was still half asleep thats why. I was trying to scan for Wanda when she was just in front of me.. *faints* MY EYES!! :'( I need SPECS, not. She WANTED to dress girly-ly but ended but dressing ruggedly. What a HUGEEE difference. Okay, it's not important. =P We shopped from Wisma to Taka and back again. Wanda is one fickle minded weirdo. She changes her mind like how people changes underpants. LOL. It's really fast, trust me. Then we took MRT to somerset to get to HEEREN but it was raining cats and dogs. So we had to choice but to go starbucks at the John Little place. I didnt regret going there instead of HEEREN at all cause I found my CARROT CAKE!! It's DELICIOUS~ I've been wanting to eat it since months ago and I finally did. SATISFIED. Alyssa and I kept taking photos all day long and Wanda is CAMERA SHY. That's sad cause she IS PHOTOGENIC :(( I do take photos but I'll always think is ugly. Haha. Alyssa almost killed the both of us. Because of the weather, they decided to come to my house to chill. Haha. GOOD. I can watch my RAIN. ^^

After they went home, I went out with korkor again. We went shoe hunting and ended up at Ikea eating meat balls. LOL! I love Ikea. It's sucha nice place and the food is good. I wanna go there again :))

Nothing much happened today. During lit class, after Wanda and I finished with our poem discussion, we started being a little retarded by trying to communicate through my small little mirror. HAHA! I was trying to poke her eyes in the mirror's reflection. Haha. It's so funny. Why call me lame shit Wanda. You are one too :) Anyway, I received a very surprising letter from Jane C. I was a little confused but will soon ask her to clearify it. During PRODOTS, this teacher came to find some people. She read out my name and I was terribly shocked cause she looks like the kind of teacher who hunts for naughty girls to me. Haha xP Fortunately, it was for something good. Me and some of the others like Beatrice and Kat were called. The teacher asked if we were interested in the Japan Exchange Programme. Of course I do! Haha. I always wanted to go for programmes like this ever since I saw Nicky having so much fun when he went for it :)) Mummy allowed me to go and I started getting really excited about it. And decided to polish up my Jap lang if I'm going. The others are not so sure.. If they're not going, then I shant go too I guess. It's pointless. Am waiting for Beatrice's good news. I hope she can go. Im praying hard..

Sigh, it just isnt my day today. I felt so "wrong" right at the moment I woke up. My gums are itching and my throat hurts. This totally shows i'm sick and I hate this feeling, it's irritating. Things just dont seem to go well today. Early in the morning when I reached school, I already had a handfull of problems.

1) I didnt wear my shorts. Although it doesnt seem really bad but it is bad to me.
2) I feel very sick and tired.
3) I forgot to bring my air-tight container for HE.
4) Bad hair.
5) My shoes are not dry YET.
6) I can't take the thumb print thingy. I had to try at least 5 times.
7) I left alyssa's lollipop and joscelyn's chocolate at home.
8) I didnt bring my MUSIC FILE. Which is terrible.

I know there's more but I cant really remember. Anyway, i'm sure i'd fail my HE test. There are many things that I dont know :( I feel so SAD. But I feel even sader for Maths. I truly think it's the one and only test I can do well in as there's only expansion, factorization, inequalities and quadratic equations. I tried REALLY HARD to practice for it so as to do well. But today, I failed myself. My efforts are all drained. Simply because I was too careless and stupid to think well. I actually thought 16-4 equals to 20?! *bangs head against the wall* And I thought a to the power of 4 times a to the power of 4 equals to a to the power of SIXTEEN. How nice.. There goes 5 marks. And the last question, I think I have the right to leave it blank and get zero for it because I havent done anything like that. So i'm okay with minus-ing 5 marks for it. But not the other 2!! *pulls hair*I better get the others all right. At least I can get 25/35. Gahh.. But it's still BAD. I COULD DO BETTER!!! I hate myself, SO MUCH.

this weekend is the worst one i've ever had ! all MAINLY because of the tests we're going have for next week. firstly, we have maths and home econs for tomorrow and then geography on wednesday. it's driving me crazy ! especially maths. i really really want to score well for this upcoming test but if i really want to, i need to do around 595 sums in 2 days. which is impossible? i think i only completed 200 plus till now. i gave up around 3pm just now and decided to study my home econs. gosh, there's so much to study! 6 CHAPTERS! *pulls hair* i hate mondays! okay, enough of this. lets try recalling things that has happened in the past few days.

1) wanda called me a lame shit.
2) mr lim told us that we're not allowed to put our heads on the table and sleep but we can stare into space?! [thats ridiculous~]
3) ms janet is pregnant. yay.
4) i didnt enjoy myself during both dance lessons.
5) i can live without anything but not someone to turn to.
6) i love drawing on si min's notebook :)
7) my mind is in a whirly
8) i tend to get too nervous during maths lessons and hence always have the need to pee. ^^;
9) i love jesse mccartney songs to death.
10) im drifting far far away from the world.
11) i always feel helpless now and then. im so gonna die.
12) im running out of water.
13) im giving too much and thus hurting myself in the end.
14) i NEED someone to SAVE ME.
15) i need a TRUE FRIEND.
16) i love being alone now.

that's about it i guess. i wanna write letters now. bye~

stress stress stress! i was figuring out this maths question just now and exclaimed "im HANGRY!" which was supposed to be "hungry" but my brother said, "you mean you're hungry and angry right?" haha! thats so creative. xP i counted and my task for today is to completed 101 maths questions before i sleep. i think it's rather impossible because i get distracted easily. especially when im hungry. haha :) i decided to cook instant noodles for my brother and myself. i didnt know cooking instant noodles was so DIFFICULT! O_O! i cant cook them. or rather, cant cook good instant noodles. im hopeless when i see fire :) so maybe i shall marry a cook next time. hehes!

i hate to admit this but, my computer is so attracting. haha! i was supposed to be doing my reflection on "The difficulty of keeping a country from falling apart." but i actually landed up here, blogging. XP korkor is bound to kill me when he is out of the bathroom but nevermine! ^^ i ought to give myself a break after using my brain cells for hours. lalala..

my eyes are failing me. i cant really see what's on the board clearly. i dont know whether if the cause of it is because im tired from napfa training or what. i hope im tired. i dont wanna wear specs! i'll look horrid. haha. had a great time laughing with si min throughout the day till 12noon when wanda is back from her tournament :) anyway, i hate the sickening weather. why is it always raining? im not trying to stop it from raining but at least rain at night! the sky look ugly here.. okay nevermine, i had a terrible time for ballet today. i was practically struggling and facing all problems myself. i feel so helpless and of course useless. sigh.. i cant wait for ms jennifer's class..

yay. i went to janey's house just now. haha. it was supposed to be a bbq thingy. but it rained so yeahh. actually, i wanted to study my science in her house but i was way too distracted. haha. so i gave up. even when im home now, i couldnt concentrate so i guess i'll study tomorrow. hehes. but i at least read every single thing in the notes. okay back to janey's house. her sister is so adorable. i like her. hahaa. hhmmms, i wont say the time i spent there was fun but i sure had a great time talking to janey. we practically talked about every single thing? yeahh, thats what i like about having heart to heart talks with people. it feels great.. i dont know why but we seem to have endless things to talk about. we talked since the sun was up and till the sun set and when the moon comes out. haha! janey has been chasing her brother out of the room a countless time because it would be weird for a guy to be around when girls talk isnt it? and surprisingly, he asked a terrible quesiton, "are you two lesbians?"LOL. thats funny. im 100% straight, mind you. haha. anyway, around 7pm when we felt bad to chase janey's brother out of the room again and again, we decided to go down for a walk. we went to the pool. it's so nice there. tranquility! :) the sky was in shades of purple. pretty~ [ it would be great if there are stars. ]we sat on the floor and started our talk again. nice nice.. but sadly it was getting late and i gotta come back home to study and complete my homework. how i wish we could talk forever :))

for the past few days, ive realised that actually, i have many people who cares about me. their little notes always cheer me up no matter what. im really grateful for what they've done and i promise to be stronger each and every day and always face challenges positively. after many years of background dancing, i finally had the chance to stand out and really show my passion for dance yesterday, all thanks to ms jennifer. she was trying to pick individuals to dance in front of everyone. those who were picked were all great dancers. envyness will always start creeping up to me whenever i see them dance. they're simply fabulous :) and after ages of anticipating, janey was picked by ms jennifer to do a solo. i was so happy for her cause it was like a dream come true! congrats janey! janey also had the chance to dance with vanessa, whom i personally think shes the best dancer and i hope to be like her someday. ms jennifer asked all sec 2s to dance and soon asked everyone if they wanted solos. the answer would definately be a yes. she picked janey and adina. i thought it wasnt my business already so i went back to sit. but on the way back, ms jennifer exclaimed, "yes! you! i saw you just now! go!" oh my.. i was shocked, just shocked. i just couldnt believe my eyes and looked at ally. she kept urging me to go but i sat on the floor covering my face. haha. she pulled me up and naughty ms jennifer played the music. gosh, once i heard the music, i ran uncontrollably to where janey and adina was and started to dance with it. [thats why the music was "LOSE CONTROL"] i was seriously stressed out by the 2 of them. i didnt know what i was doing. everything seems like a dream.. we danced twice and i finally had the time to catch my breath. i coughed, coughed and coughed. i almost vomited. haha. thats scary yeah? i couldnt believe myself. the experience was good and if i were to be picked again, i promise to do a better job :)